I Can't Get No Satisfaction.......

  The title sucked you in... didn't it?! Well, get your mind out of the gutter, haha!!! I was actually talking about my job. I love 95% of the people I work with. I like parts of my job (other parts are really annoying and brainless). It is close to my home and the hours don't bother me. The company is paying me, so that makes me happy. But.......... my job doesn't bring me any joy. I have no passion for what I am doing. I am just collecting a paycheck and it makes me sad. My job doesn't change lives or help people in any way. I really want to do something that is going to change the world or at least help one person. Working in retail is leaving me feeling empty. The biggest concern that most customers at my store have is how are they going to get the biggest discount and "Can I use my coupon?" It frustrates me. There is more severe problems than your useless coupon in this world! UGH!
  I would love to volunteer with at-risk LGBT teens, the HRC, an abused women's shelter, a surrogacy agency or pregnant teens. That would make me feel much more fulfilled. If I could get paid to work at one of those types of places, that would be my ideal job. Why can't I find a paying job doing something that helps people? Am I going to be stuck feeling unfulfilled at work until my kids are older and I have time to volunteer? I want to LOVE my job AND help make a difference. Is that too much to ask for? The once a year volunteering at the Food Bank is not enough for me. That just makes me realize that my job is not cutting it for me. Hence... I can't get noooo, sat-is-faction.

Skating on the edge of everyone's normalcy

 This has been a weird, crazy week! My husband started his new job this week. It is strange not having him home. I miss him already. He has been home for a few years (working at home and on unemployment) so the house has been totally turned around. His brother has been coming over and babysitting the little ones. He hasn't run out of the house screaming yet so that is a good sign! He got over here early this morning and he was asleep on the couch and I totally forgot that Jason was at work... Jonathan was snoring and he sounded exactly like Jason. Kinda creepy. I know that Jason and Jonathan kinda look alike but I never thought that their snores would sound alike! LOL.
 I really depended on Jason a lot when I was at work. He took such great care of the kids and did everything that needed to be done around the house.... grocery shopping, cooking, cleaning, laundry. Yep, great catch! I hope his work appreciates the sacrifices I am making by letting him come there 5 days a week. I just wish that one of us could get paid to stay at home and play with the kids. That would be ideal.
 ** I had to take a quick break because Gracie threw a temper-tantrum because I wouldn't let her wear my lipstick. When did she turn into a girl??**
 This morning, while listening to Jonathan snore, I realized that I was really bored. I needed someone to talk to. So, I logged back in my old twitter account. I didn't have anyone to talk to, but I felt like I was talking to someone so it satisfied me. For some reason, Facebook is not as much fun as it used to be.
 Oh, I almost forgot about my roller skates!!!! I found my old Skecher roller skates in the garage!!!! I am going to pack a pillow in my jeans and try to get out and skate tomorrow. Hopefully I don't kill myself or anyone else in the process. I'll update tomorrow and let everyone know what happened. Keep your fingers crossed for me!